My morning

Every morning, even on my day off, I do the same things. Yes this is mighty boring but here goes.

  1. Get up
  2. Have a shower
  3. Get dressed
  4. Go downstairs and open curtains
  5. Feed the cats, cat food,water and crunchies
  6. Feed the fish fish flakes
  7. Put on the kettle
  8. Take out recycling and rubbish
  9. Make coffee/tea
  10. Take Mark a drink upstairs
  11. Wake up the son
  12. Get breakfast
  13. Make lunches for Mark, Jarod and myself
  14. Empty dishwasher
  15. Re-load dishwasher
  16. Empty tumble dryer
  17. Refill tumble dryer
  18. Once Mark is out of the shower, put on a load of washing and dishwashing
  19. Take clean washing upstairs
  20. Bring down dirty laundry
  21. Empty sitting room bin
  22. Pick up stuff off the floor
  23. General tidy
  24. And then I go off to work….Done a days worth of work before I go to work
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Natural Sacred Energies

In all of nature there is energy. This morning I have tapped into my inner energy by taking deep breaths and concentrating on different parts of the body. I closed my eyes and started taking deep breaths. I had no TV on or distracting things so I can concentrate fully on the feelings of energy through my body. I felt so alive and could definitely feel the energy coursing through my body.

All of the bodies energy is interconnecting.It feels amazing. How out bodies work is just marvellous.

All of nature also has this inner energy. Those glorious trees growing, the plants, the animals. We are all one.

We all share this energy. It is just fantastic.

I will be taking the time out daily to do this exercise. I really loved the feelings I felt.

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Questioning

Today I spent some time reflecting on several questions posed.

Looking into a new path can be kind of scary. There are so many mixed emotions. Peoples attitudes towards Wicca/Paganism can also affect why it can be kind of scary. People automatically think that you worship satan. How wrong are they??

I am trying to be patient with people who have such a negative view but it is difficult.

I am also working through my days and learning more and more.

The more I learn the more I feel that this path is the right path for me.

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Day Three- Melting Beliefs

Today I have lit a 5 inch white taper candle. Etched into the side of the candle is the word “fear” which is one word that ran throughout day twos task.

Fear of-

Letting go

Changing religious beliefs

Other peoples fears of the unknown

doing a ritual wrong

perhaps my fear of the unknown

Looking into the flame of the candle I can feel my feeling of fear draining from my body and mind. I know that I will be aware of this feeling throughout the year and day of study.

It is odd how a 4 letter word can cause so many feelings and emotions. But now this fear is being melted away.

I found it very enlightening to take part in this small ritual. Yes, I worried that I would do something wrong but I can honestly say that it is helping remove the fear.

The ritual has brought feelings of contentment in me. Removing this fear.

I believe that I have let go of the fear of the unknown, of doing things wrong and finding my right path.

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My new path- Day Two

Today I spent time reflecting on how I view words related to Wicca.

These words were Wicca, Ritual, Pagan, Witchcraft, Magic, Spell, Power, Occult and Earth-Religion.

It was interesting to sit and think of what I think of these words and what they mean to me.

I had to write this down and keep the paper to one side.  I write essays when I write! This will be used in tomorrows task.

I am learning so much already. It feels so comfortable.

It is so lovely to feel at home with myself at last.

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Starting out on my new path- Day One

I started on my new path last year but lost touch with where I was after Mark’s heart attack so here I go again.

I am working through the book Wicca- A year and a day 366 days of spiritual practice in the craft of the wise by Timothy Roderick and published by Llewellyn Worldwide.

It is classed as a Witchcraft/Wicca book. I have had this book for a while and it is well used and abit dog earred now. I brought it new from Amazon online as it called to me.

I spent a while reading the information in the front of the book to prepare myself for day one. Wicca/Paganism is the oldest religion in the world and it nature based.

I have always felt an infinity to nature. I always used to walk around outside barefoot and felt the energy of the earth but as a young child I did not know if this was normal.  I spent a lot of my time at the Nine Ladies circle in Derbyshire and I did feel at home there. I loved spending time in nature, climbing trees, making daisy chains, making mud pies. It just felt right to be outside.

I still do love spending time outside. I could sit for hours in the garden and just relax.

Day One on my new path does involve sitting down in nature and connecting to the earth.

I went outside today and spent what seems like hours just sitting on the grass on my back lawn, ignoring the sounds of life around me, such as the neighbours mowing their lawns, motorbikes revving up and shouting and children playing.

Closing my eyes, I followed the steps given in the book to concentrate on the feelings. No doubt my neighbours think I am abit kooky but hey ho.

It felt amazing.

There were some questions at the end of the days task and I am going to answer them on my blog. To keep a record of the sensations, feelings and emotions that it brought out in me.

I felt my connection was strong to the earth. I could feel the pulse of the earth and the roots underneath the earth. I felt warm, relaxed and comfortable. I felt a feeling of elation and my feet felt connected and light. Every bit of me felt light. I felt as one with the earth and it was an awesome feeling. On opening my eyes,everything seemed brighter. I noticed the different shades of green in the grass, the breeze blowing through the trees, the butterflies fluttering around.

I do not know why I feel this strong connection to the earth. I suspect that I have always had this connection and never done anything to look into this before or the guts or confidence. I feel slightly nauseous and a headache. I don’t know if this is connected.

I felt my connection was weak when I try to visualise in my mind the images I was expected to. Perhaps I am creating blockages myself. Perhaps I am scared to let go.

I can take action to learn how to meditate and visualise correctly and not be afraid to let go. This feels like home to me and is right and proper for me.

Day Two beckons and I cannot wait to learn more.

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In pain

As I am getting older I am finding the general aches and pains seems to be getting worse. And I am so clumsy its laughable. I don’t know about anyone else but this feels like I am falling to pieces lol.

I think I should have a competition to see how many bruises I also have. Crikey,, its like dot to dot.

Today, I went to see a doctor at the new practice we have registered with and for the first time in ages I feel like I have been listened to and have been referred for physio. Very impressed. I have been having these back pains for several years now and never been referred before. Only given pills.

Sometimes pills are not the answer. Although they do help!

Hopefully now I can get sorted and look forward to being back to normal. Hah hah.

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