I do believe I set high standards for myself in my mind because I know that I am going to fail. So then I can play the poor me game and beat myself up for not acheiving the goals I have set for myself.
I wish I could set lower goals for myself to give me the chance to succeed for once. But I know I can do more than what I end up doing. I play the dumb female a lot .I know I can be quiet intelligent when I put my mind to it but I do not allow my self-confidence in my ability to do things to allow me to do the goals I have set for myself.
My husband and family have faith in me and want me to realise that I can do the things I set my mind on, but I don’t have the faith in myself to do this.
I have been for CBT to help me change the way I think about things and have been for counselling which did help. But I still know there is this journey I need to take.
Positive thinking is difficult for me and I know this has held me back for so many years. I am on some decent anti-depressants and my circumstances have changed in regards to my job which has helped so now I need to get over the way I feel about myself and my weight.